Had the most lung-racking cough today. My lungs are tired.
I'm so so sick of studying.
Oct 27, 2007
Oct 25, 2007
cry
I have seen tears
I have seen pain
Crying on your shoulders
For your name
Do you see my guilt
Should I feel fine?
Is the fire of hesitation
Burning bright
If you want to
talk about it once again
Come and sit with me
and cry, on my shoulder
once again
I'm a friend.
I have seen pain
Crying on your shoulders
For your name
Do you see my guilt
Should I feel fine?
Is the fire of hesitation
Burning bright
If you want to
talk about it once again
Come and sit with me
and cry, on my shoulder
once again
I'm a friend.
Oct 22, 2007
insommnia
It's exactly 4am now, and I can't get back to sleep.
It's just one of those days when you toss and turn the whole time with no effect.
So here I am, staring at this screen, trying to pen down my latest thoughts.
I heard stories, of how friends are struggling to get their act together for the A-levels. And i see them slacking or giving up on themselves.
If you think you fit this description, please; Close this browser and hit the books. If you fuck A-levels up, You would be 18 years old, with no employable skills, a decent O-level cert, essentially young and hopeless.
What's next then? Australia is always a good option to run away. Their universities accept candidates with wide-ranging scores. Yet their universities are very, very expensive. Can you afford it? More importantly, can you live with yourself when you blow a sizable chunk (if not all) of your parent's retirement savings and/or coffin-money?
Another options would be those wtf-kind of American universities, where they have just-started, and are hence willing to accept anyone, even paying for you to go there. But this certificate is highly dubious to anyone. Would anyone accept it?
Locally, polytechnics beckon. But that would be a highly roundabout manner to get a diploma.
"Tertiary institutes" such as uniSIM, MDIS, KAPLAN also exist, but really what's the point? You can top the class or school there and a NUS student would still get more credit.
Like I said, Young and Hopeless.
When we're 80, I'm sure that we would understand our lives better than now. We all are here for a purpose; That I'm sure. But I wish someone could show me the way.
I really respect people who are able to grow the balls and drop out (bill gates) to pursue their dreams. I certainly don't dare to.
It's just one of those days when you toss and turn the whole time with no effect.
So here I am, staring at this screen, trying to pen down my latest thoughts.
I heard stories, of how friends are struggling to get their act together for the A-levels. And i see them slacking or giving up on themselves.
If you think you fit this description, please; Close this browser and hit the books. If you fuck A-levels up, You would be 18 years old, with no employable skills, a decent O-level cert, essentially young and hopeless.
What's next then? Australia is always a good option to run away. Their universities accept candidates with wide-ranging scores. Yet their universities are very, very expensive. Can you afford it? More importantly, can you live with yourself when you blow a sizable chunk (if not all) of your parent's retirement savings and/or coffin-money?
Another options would be those wtf-kind of American universities, where they have just-started, and are hence willing to accept anyone, even paying for you to go there. But this certificate is highly dubious to anyone. Would anyone accept it?
Locally, polytechnics beckon. But that would be a highly roundabout manner to get a diploma.
"Tertiary institutes" such as uniSIM, MDIS, KAPLAN also exist, but really what's the point? You can top the class or school there and a NUS student would still get more credit.
Like I said, Young and Hopeless.
When we're 80, I'm sure that we would understand our lives better than now. We all are here for a purpose; That I'm sure. But I wish someone could show me the way.
I really respect people who are able to grow the balls and drop out (bill gates) to pursue their dreams. I certainly don't dare to.
Oct 19, 2007
doing the joga
I just played street soccer for the first time in like two months. ohhhh my arms and legs ache..
SATs coming out soon!
SATs coming out soon!
Oct 16, 2007
. . . - - - . . .
I don't know how to do this.
It's so tiring.
It's like the harder i try, the more i backslide.
I tried; I really tried.
I feel so burnt out. Ok, i know you have to study hard in the first place to get burnt out and my level of work (or rather lack of) has been appalling when compared to my energizer o-level kind of pia in the first place. I really have been bumming around, playing winning eleven (YES I SIGNED BERBATOV), snacking, sleeping, essentially everything but study.
Like I said, Burnt out.
This wasn't supposed to be like this
At least, I think so.
Can't I fast forward to 1st December, when i can finally bid adios to all this?
I am so gonna build the biggest bonfire in the world, fueled purely by the staggering amounts of notes that i have studiously collected, filled in, consumed and regurgitated in my examinations.
My table is now strewn with millions of pieces of paper and i have resorted to studying at my sister's table. hah.
fuck man.
It's so tiring.
It's like the harder i try, the more i backslide.
I tried; I really tried.
I feel so burnt out. Ok, i know you have to study hard in the first place to get burnt out and my level of work (or rather lack of) has been appalling when compared to my energizer o-level kind of pia in the first place. I really have been bumming around, playing winning eleven (YES I SIGNED BERBATOV), snacking, sleeping, essentially everything but study.
Like I said, Burnt out.
This wasn't supposed to be like this
At least, I think so.
Can't I fast forward to 1st December, when i can finally bid adios to all this?
I am so gonna build the biggest bonfire in the world, fueled purely by the staggering amounts of notes that i have studiously collected, filled in, consumed and regurgitated in my examinations.
My table is now strewn with millions of pieces of paper and i have resorted to studying at my sister's table. hah.
fuck man.
Oct 11, 2007
grad night!
We're into the whole whips and chains thing.
how we've changed.
Grad night was the typical photowhore kinda experience. fun!
Oct 7, 2007
muse
It's a wonderful sunday. The weather has been excellent.
The night air is cooling; The crescent moon is bright.
I'm mugging my life out.
Youth is really wasted on the young.
The night air is cooling; The crescent moon is bright.
I'm mugging my life out.
Youth is really wasted on the young.
Oct 6, 2007
SATs
have recently concluded; with me taking them for the 2nd time.
I have just concluded prelims, with getting a decent BBDE, plus B for gp. Can't say I'm satisfied, though i hope this goes on to show that i can get the AAAA for A-levels.
Life is one big mug, and everyone in school is getting paler and fairere by the lack of exercise. Some (like me) have uniforms that grow increasingly tighter as each day passes. The library is now one favourite haunt and everyone, no matter jock or geek, stakes his/her claim at the library.
The demographics at the library are as follows.
1. If you want to mug in silence (due to panic) or if you just have no friends or if you just had ginger and is now farting like an exhaust pipe, you take the cubicles. Located along the perimeter of the library, they offer complete isolation as though you live in a sound proof bubble. Of course, couples can often be seen making out. Just leave if the rocking and moans get too distracting.
2. The computer tables are also an excellent option. Many, frustrated by the lack of nice seats, then take the computer tables. They place their card on the ez-link desk and then proceed to take that slot for 6 whole hours. Of course, they do not actually use the computer. They activate the internet browser, then leave it at the hci homepage and then claim right of usage for the next 6 hours. One can almost hear the desperate J1s clawing them into shreds mentally to use the terminal for their pw.
3. The last, and most popular option of studying in the library are the social mugging. Referred to colloquially as S and S ( Socialising and Studying), this is also widely accepted as the least effective form of mugging in the library. Many groups of people there take this time to make up for their pitiful social lives and have social interactions there.During peak hours, the place is a jungle of activity. Classes have been known to "set-up shop" there, taking one entire row there and proceed to talk, chat, laugh, gossip, fold paper airplanes and essentially do everything other than study.
Ok please don't sue me.
I have just concluded prelims, with getting a decent BBDE, plus B for gp. Can't say I'm satisfied, though i hope this goes on to show that i can get the AAAA for A-levels.
Life is one big mug, and everyone in school is getting paler and fairere by the lack of exercise. Some (like me) have uniforms that grow increasingly tighter as each day passes. The library is now one favourite haunt and everyone, no matter jock or geek, stakes his/her claim at the library.
The demographics at the library are as follows.
1. If you want to mug in silence (due to panic) or if you just have no friends or if you just had ginger and is now farting like an exhaust pipe, you take the cubicles. Located along the perimeter of the library, they offer complete isolation as though you live in a sound proof bubble. Of course, couples can often be seen making out. Just leave if the rocking and moans get too distracting.
2. The computer tables are also an excellent option. Many, frustrated by the lack of nice seats, then take the computer tables. They place their card on the ez-link desk and then proceed to take that slot for 6 whole hours. Of course, they do not actually use the computer. They activate the internet browser, then leave it at the hci homepage and then claim right of usage for the next 6 hours. One can almost hear the desperate J1s clawing them into shreds mentally to use the terminal for their pw.
3. The last, and most popular option of studying in the library are the social mugging. Referred to colloquially as S and S ( Socialising and Studying), this is also widely accepted as the least effective form of mugging in the library. Many groups of people there take this time to make up for their pitiful social lives and have social interactions there.During peak hours, the place is a jungle of activity. Classes have been known to "set-up shop" there, taking one entire row there and proceed to talk, chat, laugh, gossip, fold paper airplanes and essentially do everything other than study.
Ok please don't sue me.
Oct 4, 2007
ugly betty!
leaving the life of a dropout these days. School certainly seems pointless now. Lessons pass and i waste all that time travelling....
SATs this saturday. I seriously seriously seriously hope i don't fuck this up this time.
I've been watching ugly betty everyday! my favourite show now heh heh.
To anyone that cares im really really sorry for the ridiculously short posts. WIll give a good long update after this saturday.
SATs this saturday. I seriously seriously seriously hope i don't fuck this up this time.
I've been watching ugly betty everyday! my favourite show now heh heh.
To anyone that cares im really really sorry for the ridiculously short posts. WIll give a good long update after this saturday.
Oct 2, 2007
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